Monday, January 21, 2008

It has been a pleasant few days since my last post. Some revelations, introspection a little conflict and even an epiphany. I'd say that's pretty good. Oh, and of course a little beautification going on, with my new blog and shop banners, graphic design credits go to Etsy artists Craftlicious and Ohkimma respectively.

Other Etsy news, I made my 200th sale this morning, I'm over the top about that. I have for so long battled perfection paralysis and I truly believe stepping out, well more leaping out and into my creative self has cured me. Art allows you to set the bar in your mind's eye, there is no right or perfect way other than your rightful vision. I'm proud of myself. I have a custom order for my other shop and then I will focus on adding some more photography to Pretty in Peace. It's colorful in the beautiful Sonoran desert this time of year, a perfect time to delve into my photographic self.

On a more personal note, life has been good for a few days. I've been really trying to get a handle on my emotions. Not just the depression, but my emotional health overall. I've come to the realization that my sensitivity is a double edged sword. I feel both love and contempt with the same fervor. I'd of course like to keep the former and relieve myself of the latter, but I fear it will leave me too vulnerable. My ability to tap into that deep place for whatever purpose is both a blessing and a curse. I'm often met with so much ambivalence in social situations, that I opt for stagnation which is not at all beneficial. What would the world do without my wit?! Laughs.
I'm taking a few Etsy detox days, just to relax and regroup. I've got a bunch of chores that need completion and the sushi that is my mind needs a little palate cleansing ginger. Thinks, compares mind to sushi-yes, a break is probably overdue. I'm serious I don't know where this shit comes from, but when my creativity has regressed to sushi-it's time to put the old broad to rest. I'll be back detailing the trials, and triumphs of my Etsy-free days and nights.
As an aside before I bid adieu-I have received some rather interesting e-mails, phone calls and comments regarding The Riddance passage. I just want you all to know, on many levels how absolutely validating and inspiring are your thoughts and words. As a writer, knowing that I have "hit the spot" is orgasmic. As a woman and, an inhabitant of this often cruel world, it is reassuring to know that there are others who've been where I've been, seen the things I've seen, felt the pain I have felt and yet, are have enough sanity to surf the web! I'm sure you were thinking something monumentally profound would follow-but in reality, sanity is just not so damn easy to come by anymores! (The pluralization of anymore is a deliberate dedication to Forest Hills, Queens NY.)

I love you mwah...hahaha, Roxanne you're too cute!

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