Monday, July 13, 2009

On 36 and Thinking

My first day as a thirty six year old was eerily similar to my last days as a 35 year old, only spent in new pajamas. It would seem the past few years have been rich in deep- and sometimes not, thought. Some days I become so overstimulated by my internal voice, it seems as though I've been amidst company.

I sometimes catch myself asking inwardly-and sometimes outwardly, if I'd previously covered a thought as it enters; only to discover, I have not. Feeling too far invested in the topic to bring the now rightfully confused party (usually the Favorite Guy) up to speed, I return to my internal voice. I enjoy the company for the most part, and we get on nicely-however, between us friends, sometimes I wish she'd just shut the hell up. Do you ever feel that way?

Peace and quiet

17 comments:

A Cuban In London said...

First of all, happy birthday! Secondly, by the time you get to forty (not that I am there yet, mind) you forget numbers completely. Enjoy your day and your new pyjamas :-).

Greetings from London.

Ms. Bar B: said...

Uh... YEAH!! I think we are so many selves that we are forever in competition with our "selves" for face time. Responsibility competing with creativity competing with being present in the outside world holds silence hostage, lol.

Maybe this new year will release some of your silence.

shiborigirl said...

Yes, Happy Birthday! (I used to refer to my 40th as the 1st anniversary of my 39th!)

Oh that inner voice - yes, I wish she'd shut up, especially when she's trying to stop me from reaching for that cookie. Or when she makes me second-guess my work process. I can't tell you how many things I've had to redo, or scrap entirely, because that noisy bitch told me it wasn't good enough! :)

Kate

shiborigirl said...

Of course, I just realized I misread your numbers - you are still pretty far from 39! Sorry... That's what I get for blogging before coffee.

Kate

High Desert Diva said...

Constantly...... :-)

Sherry Goodloe said...

Happy Birthday sweetie!! And yes, I know too well about that internal voice *sigh*. And between you and me, I have actually told her OUT LOUD to shut the heck up! LOL

Enjoy your bd month!!

Kwana said...

Oh I do. I talk way too much sometimes and I tire myself out. I hope your birthday was great. Wishing you all the best this year.

miznyc said...

Happy Birthday! Sometimes I wish my inner voice would be more outer. That's what gets me in trouble. lol.

PonderandStitch said...

Oh, how I love your posts (and your posts on the forums, too!)-

I feel this way a lot, too. You are not alone (I turned 30 this year).

Oh, and I'm jealous of the new pajamas. I'd like some! :)

Jennifer said...

YES, yes, and yes!!!

lori vliegen said...

happy birthday sweet girl!! i don't know which i'm more jealous of....the fact that you're only 36... or that you got some new pajamas! :)

Kathy said...

Always and reading Eckhart Tolle has helped immensely! I never realized how much chatter there was going on in my head. The conversations I replayed or preplayed. Now I am learning to stay "present" and not allow the past stuff and the future stuff to rule my head. Not easy, but well worth it.

Enjoy the new jammies. I might have to go out and buy some now.

Victoria said...

Happy Birthday!
I've got a good 10 years on you and I still grapple with those inner voices, (I have more then one, as I separate the critical inner voice from the curious inner voice.) Its a love/hate relationship, indeed!

Yvonne said...

Good to know I'm not the only one who has 'self' talks!! My inner voice is a worrisome soul that often bring me to the brink and back. She's the voice of reason and common sense. I'm the flighty one who wants to daydream and listen to music all day.

Cathe Holden said...

Welcome to the over 35 club. Happy, happy birthday to you.

I wonder, however, the ages of your inner voice(s). Are they in the club?

Jewelry Rockstar said...

Happy 36th baby!!!! Many many more.

Get Togetha: Lifestyle & Decor said...

Happy Belated...!!!!

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