Wednesday, October 28, 2009
There were certainly some boundary issues to work out between he and Biju.
Biju was, er... a more worldly gal and certainly not the best house guest!
She often had to be confronted about these affronts.
Tuesday, October 27, 2009
Saturday, October 24, 2009
It's been 8 months now, since my grandmother's stroke. During this time there've been a few more health related happenings, a couple surgeries and, a lot to think about, figure out and wrap my change-loathing head around. Whilst any conscious attempt at sorting my thoughts is quickly intercepted by the bowling-ball-in-the-throat-imploding-brain-pain-combo-with-a-side-of-tears, I have been making progress.
A few weeks ago she and I were having one of our regular lengthy chats and she said, "Y'know I've had a good life these eighty-four years..." I wanted so badly to stave this conversation off for some time in Neverary, but I nodded, swallowed and confirmed that I was listening with a soft, throaty inflection. She continued, "and I know you all want me to live forever, but I'm tired now." And then the levees broke, I could literally feel the chemical warfare happening between the man-made stuff I take for maximum daily "sparkle" and my default chemistry. What happened next was totally unexpected. There was no bowling ball, no implosion-there were no tears. It was as if my person had been taken over by a far nobler puppeteer, and without hesitation or forethought, I said assuredly, "Mom, I just want you to be happy".
Huh?! I can't even tell you what we spoke about from that point because I was in total awe. When hit with the realization and magnitude of what I'd felt and spoken, I looked around both bemused and bewildered. I turned to the cats thinking they would, or could somehow, confirm my presence and add credence to the moment, but it was all me.
This is the first time I've ever faced-in clear and present awareness, such a powerful choice; not only for myself, but for my grandmother and my children and their children, and my blog readers and friends and...well, you understand. I've got far to go still, but for a moment I held the power to let go, and in some small way, I did.
Wednesday, October 21, 2009
Sunday, October 18, 2009
Saturday, October 17, 2009
This time it's been a bit of both. I've learned that I am a force with a place and purpose in the Universe, uniquely held and understood by me. I've learned that that is okay, that I'm okay, that I'm going to be okay. I've also victoriously made such an assertion: succinctly, obstreperously; steeped in fear but powered by courage. I've faced my opposition with neither apology nor explanation. The reasons don't matter but the power to come to such reasoning does, and now I'm back. The journey continues.
“From the true antagonist,
Wednesday, October 14, 2009
Saturday, October 10, 2009
Wednesday, October 7, 2009
Tuesday, October 6, 2009
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Friday, October 2, 2009
I'm going to make October my get it done before the year ends and you're filled with anxiety and regret month. Yep. That's just what I'm gonna do. And, I'll write more about these pressing obligations complete with photos. Now, that's a great idea! Yeah, I'll get right on it, eventually.